Procrastination...

Well, a few things have happened since I last posted. Booster was last weekend, and it was great! I didn't go to all of the activities, but went to the services and the worship was awesome! I really felt like the speaker connected well with the teens. Last Sunday night at Encounter Natasha spoke and did an incredible job!! I don't think I've heard someone speak on Song of Songs quite like she did, she has such a passion for the Lord it is so awesome. This weekend was our retreat for class. I felt it went really well, although there was an accident everything went smoothly and honestly, couldn't have gone better. Everyone who attended as "campers" seemed to have a good time! We actually did get to relax, and I felt like no one was stressed about work or anything, it was a great time to hang out and get to know people, but also meet with God in solitude! Lynn and Natasha spoke and did a great job, God really put them in our path for a reason!
Five weeks from right now, I will either be home, or on my way home for 3 weeks...Christmas break. I can't believe how fast this semester has gone. I feel like the semesters fly by here at Bethany because there is so much going on, and so much to do!
God is working a lot in my life! My brother and sister-in-law are expecting another baby...which is so exciting in my opinion! I honestly, don't know how to describe what God is doing in my life, because I don't exactly know...I do know that Him and I are working on things...and it will take time. We live in such a world that is, "everything happens right now" that it is hard to be patient and just wait. I know that I need to and that everything will work out in God's timing but only in His timing. I'm really struggling with this as well though, a lot of confusion, which satan is taking advantage of. People say, "Just trust in God" and I know we all need to do that, but it can be so hard! It's like giving your best friend, (who you've never seen) your entire life and let them tell you where you are going and giving them control of your life.
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A very much needed break...why did it have to end?

This week has been so crazy! It was mid-term week, and it seemed like everyone was really stressed! I hardly got any sleep during the week, and finally got a break! I went to my aunt and uncle's house last night, and we took my grandma to Moncton to fly back home today. It was great to spend time away from school, even if it was just for a night. My aunt and I are close in our relationship, we were talking about losing my nephew, and my sister and that whole situation. She pointed out a song to me by Casting Crowns, called, "Love Them Like Jesus" and the second verse says this:

"The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue

Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon

Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray

As the little one slips away."

and another song, called Held by Natalie Grant

"Two months is too little.

They let him go.

They had no sudden healing.

To think that providence would

Take a child from his mother while she prays

Is appalling.

Who told us we’d be rescued?

What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?

We’re asking why this happens

To us who have died to live? It’s unfair.

Chorus:

This is what it means to be held.

How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life

And you survive.

This is what it is to be loved.

And to know that the promise was

When everything fell we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness.

We want to taste it, let the hatred NUMB our sorrow.

The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

Bridge:

If hope is born of suffering.

If this is only the beginning.

Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior? "

God, you are so amazing!

Parent/Grandparent Day

Things are going pretty well! I haven't updated in a while, it's really busy here at school though! Tomorrow is Parent/Grandparent day, my grandma is in NB visiting family, so she is coming to spend the day with me! I can't wait to see her, I haven't seen her since August, I did see her for about 1/2 hour when I came home for Thanksgiving. Midterms are next week, I have one Monday, and one Tuesday, then on the weekend I'm headed for a night at my Aunt and Uncles! It will be great to have a break and hang out with family.
Keep Your Chin Up!

Why?

I don't understand it. My little nephew didn't make it, a few heartbeats old and he was just too small. He was so perfect and so tiny. It is amazing how much love can be poured into such a small little boy weighing only 1 1/2 lbs. How come other people get to keep their babies and my sister didn't. People want to give up babies, yet my sister's son didn't live. I just don't understand it. Why?

Why do people act like highschool students in college?

The last few days have been non-stop, people are acting like high school students in their relationships and I for one do not like it at all! I mean, your adults now and in college, act like it would ya!
I am really excited to go home on Wednesday even though I have to leave at an insanly crazy hour of the morning! I'm home for a week and cannot wait! I do indeed have to get through today and tomorrow though!
Ciao

Keeping my feet wet

Well, God has been doing great things in my life since being back at school. It's been a rough ride though, I must admit. I almost went home, but realized it was Satan attacking me from every direction! I did stay at school, and things are going great, I'm counting down the days until I fly home for Thanksgiving! I'm home for 7 days...how sweet is that?! I am so excited! I have lots of work, but so far I'm staying on top of it, and will really reap from this break!
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Finally in New Brunswick

Hey everyone, I'm going to try and do this for the like fifth time. I've been trying to get a blog in but for some reason it won't work. I am back in the NB area, and moving into school tomorrow morning. I will write more later, this is just kind of a test to see if this works. Leave a message so I can figure out if it's still working. Thanks!

I'm finally in the land of relaxing...

Hey! How is everyone doing...it's been a while since I have written. I'm finished work, ended pretty well, and now I'm in NB, staying at my aunt and uncle's house about 45 minutes from school. I didn't end up getting any OSAP, and so now applying for a bank loan. I am moving into school on Monday Sept.5. I cannot wait to see everyone again!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I better go,
Ciao.
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Stop Playing Church People!

This came out of some stuff this week, but why is it that people play church. I for one am extremly sick of it! Should I not be attending a church where I can be serving but also where I am getting something out of the service, and where I feel God calling me to be. Chels, we need to get together and have one of our church talks!
I gotta go, but see you all soon, leave a message!
ciao

Summer is coming to an end

Yes, indeed, it is true. Summer is coming to an end. I'm excited and sad all at the same time. I don't want to be finished work, but I do want to see everyone from school. I finish work on the 26th of August, one week!! I leave then on the 29th to go to school. I am going back with my aunt and uncle and staying with them for a week. I'm really excited because I know at least two people going in as freshman this fall. I'm really excited, because one of them and I became good friends and then lost touch. It will be cool to rekindle that friendship!!
This Sunday is my last Sunday here at church, I'm singing, and sharing about my summer, so please keep me in prayer as I can get really nervous.
For now I'm signing off, leave a message.
Can't wait to see all the BBC people soon, we have to find time to get together...you know who you are!!
ciao.

No time for this

Ok, this is going to hopefully be a fast blog entry. It has been a while since I've been able to write. Last weekend we had our youth camping trip and had a blast, after we broke into the wrong cottage! We finally got into the right cottage then Saturday afternoon while out in the water/boat etc we had a thunder and lightening storm!! That was interesting!! Right now I'm out at the acres for the week. I just finished filling in for the secretary for 2 weeks, boy that was interesting! I better get going, I need to get back to the camp. Oh ya, I went to POC last night...my first time driving Toronto area. I loved it! I came back this morning. I got to see lots of old friends and campers!!
Love ya all, leave a message!
Ciao.

I don't have a name for this entry...

Hey! Well, my week was great! I got to visit a friend last Wednesday out of town and had an awesome time with her, then went on to go shopping for my nephew's 2nd birthday. I took my mom to an Avalon concert last night. It was incredible...those guys do a great job! I heard them in Ottawa with my brother a few years ago...and they were amazing then as well! I am heading to my trailer either today or tomorrow for probably most of the summer! Saturday is the start of Family Camp 1. I can't wait to get out there!! Summer can finally begin, because for me it doesn't really begin until I get out there. Work is going well, we had our last Sunday night youth group this past Sunday, we went to one of the teen's homes and had a pool/movie party, it was a lot of fun! We watched Ladder 49! Great Movie!! The guys didn't want to watch it so the girls did and we were all crying by the end of it! We are planning a camping trip in july and a beach day in August, then I have to lead a morning service Aug. 21. Things are going well! God is still working on me in ways I didn't know possible. It's exciting though, to see where God is taking me in life and what He has in store for me!

I'm being stretched

Hey! Things are slowing down a bit for me! At least, I thought they were, until I attended a meeting at work, and realized that it is going to get busier. God is really stretching me...I guess it's a good thing, but it is very difficult for me! He is taking me way out of my comfort zone. I almost feel like I'm getting all the jobs other people don't want to do. I mean, I love my job! But, like I said I feel like I'm getting dumped on. I am afraid that as good things are happening over the summer, that when fall comes and I leave that they won't have anyone to continue on with the things I've started.
I guess things are confusing and I just need to leave it in God's hands. I still have not heard anything about finances for next year so if you could be praying for that it would be great!
Thanks

It's In Your Hands God

It has been an interesting few weeks! I organized and led a youth service that we invited the whole church to, about 45 people came! I thought it went really well. It was very evident that God was there and it was totally for Him!
I have been worrying a lot more lately about school and how I'm going to pay for it. I need to give it completly 100% over to God though, I try and do that buy have a hard time just leaving it there! It's difficult knowing that when I go back to school, I won't be going back to the apartment I used to live in with the people I used to live with; which is really sad, we were like family!
Please keep me in prayer, and if I can do anything for you let me know!
Ciao

Confused

I am so confused right now! I love my job and great things are happening in my opnion! I am just confused about school. I know I am supposed to be at Bethany but I'm just having a hard time trusting God for the finances. There are a few people who want me to stick around here instead of going back to school, to continue my job, but I know I wouldn't be getting paid and it's not where I'm supposed to be right now! I'm also not having the best time at home, still having a rough time adjusting to everything...and it's been ever a month! Any tips?

Help me out God

Superchick sings a song called, "Help me out God" and these lyrics have been running through my head for the past 24 hours.
"Help me out God I need a little something
Turn the brights on I can't see where we're going
Cause I don't know when things'll work out just fine
Or if this road we're on leads us up
Or is leading me on down to my wishing well
Where I might drown oh I might drown
Cause I can't swim without you God
Help me out God I need a little something
Hold my hand so I know that I'm not falling down
Or spinning round or am I really just fine
Is this vertigo I feel just simply fear or maybe real
It's a long way down and I might fall and I might fall
Cause I can't stand without you God
Help me out God I need a little something
Just enough so I don't lose hope before morning comes
Cause in the sun things'll work out just fine
But the night's been extra long I fear I won't make it to the Dawn
Cause the night is dark and I might doubt and I might doubt
Cause I can't hop without you God
Just enough for tday get me through 'til tomorrow'"

It's been such a rough time lately in my life in more ways than one. I just wish there was an answer. If you could be praying for me in general that would be awesome!
Thanks guys!

A week later...

Well, I went to a wedding last night of a friend I grew up with. She looked amazing and her wedding was great! She had this amazing glow about her!
These next few weeks are looking incredibly busy with a youth service coming up that I am leading. I am trying to get everything together so it is done well!
Other than all of this busyness I'm doing well. I would rather be back at school with everyone than here at home. It feels like I'm arguing all the time with my mom, I just wish there was something/somewhere I could go. Andybody know how I feel?
That's all for now, hope to hear from you soon!

Life isn't the same anymore!

Hey! I feel so confused right now! I am not sure how I'm going to pay for school nexy year. I didn't get the government grant that I was expecting to get. It almost makes me wonder if I am really supposed to be at BBC. I'm taking 11 teenagers to Wonderland tomorrow for the Spring Celebration concert, it should be good! Our original plan was to leave at 8am but I got a call saying they wanted to switch it to 9am, get this: they wanted to sleep in!
I am wondering where God is in all of this confusion of financial stuff. It's so hard to give it all over to Him and "just trust Him."
Any advice?

Ever have 'one of those days'?

So, today was a work at home day. I got a lot of work done, but just turned into a blah day. I really was missing school and just wanted to have a really good talk with one of my friends. It didn't happen, which is ok, I mean I know she is busy with stuff at home. I've been feeling really out of place at home. I don't know why, and wish it wasn't so, but it is. Why can't I just have all of my friends at school here with me? It is so difficult right now! I need to get going because I am really tired and need to work tomorrow! Please drop me a line if you have any advice.
Thanks!

Up and running

OK. I think I'm back for good this time. What a crazy few months it has been, trying to finish off year and projects, write exams, pack, and get everything into storage but also pack everything I need for 4 months into two bags. Kind of nuts, but I made it!
I have started work and love it! I really enjoy working with the youth, I have realized this is a job I've been doing for years, but now I'm getting paid for it, a day off, and I love it! That's what matters most!
I really do miss my friends at school, and if any of you guys are reading this, email, call, or leave a post. I love you guys! Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to be home but would love to be home with all of my friends from school!
I am going to Spring Celebration on the 21 of May which should be a lot of fun! I'm also going to my trailer that weekend, and will get to see some of my friends from camp that are out there for the long weekend! It should be good.
I led youth group last night and it went amazingly well! I don't think a youth meeting as gone so well!! The kids were quiet during the speaking time (which doesn't happen often) and then they were asking questions throughout the spaking, which we answered at the end! It was so awesome to see God work!