I wonder...

I sit here and wonder. Why me? I am so confused about life and where God is taking me. I also wonder if I will make it through another day. I don't get it. I don't understand why parents cannot be supportive, and why when one is doing something totally insane the other one won't step up to the plate and back the child up when he/she knows that what they are doing is wrong. I don't like living at home again, it is hard and I want to move out and be on my own. I wonder, would it be easier to live on my own? Would I get more OSAP for school? Would I get more respect from my parents? Would they finally treat me like an adult?

I got a job!

Hey Everyone, well, my interview thing went well this morning and I have a job. I start training Monday, and work from 7am-2pm Monday - Friday for 2 weeks straight. Then it is training on the phone for two weeks. I think it should be good, it's with Sears, Call Center, it is the Home Central part of it.
I leave tomorrow for NB, and I'm hoping to see most of you, if I don't see you stop by my room in JP on Thursday. I am also hoping to get to a chapel service, but we will see how that works out!
I guess God is in control. I need to keep trusting that, as hard as it can be some days.

Keep your chin up my friend!

Have Patience

This is something I really need to learn! I have a hard time being patient. I just had an argument with my dad, and I hate when they happen. I just wish I could be more patient with both of my parents. It's hard living at home after being on your own for a year and a half, and not having to tell someone where your going and when you'll be back, even though my parents don't mind me going places and don't care when I come home.

Sorry, had to vent. Things other than above are going well. I'm still looking for a job but put my resume in at Job Connect, where they help people find jobs and I have an appointment monday with an emplyoment counselor. Today is my mom's birthday, and worship practice tonight. Tomorrow we will probably celebrate my mom's birthday with my brother and his family and my grandma and maybe even my sister and her fiance.

I love this weather! I was in town all day yesterday, and driving around with the windows down, and then I had to go to the nearest beckers and get eggs, (which is 15 minutes away) and it was like 9:30 at night and I had the windows down! It was GREAT! Today it's snowing, but it isn't too cold I don't think. We will see!

I hope you are all doing well, and I can't wait to see you soon!

Later

Not sure where I'm going...

I have been trying my best to keep a positive attitude about this whole situation but it is really hard! I have not found a job and just don't understand why this is all happening. I've been continaully having my quiet time and it's been really cool what God is teaching me through that, every night's devotion feels like it has been written just for me for that certain night! I had a difficult day yesterday because everyone was headed back to school, everyone but me that is. I really don't get it...

Wanted - A Job!

Life sure can change within a matter of seconds! I came home last Friday night to receive a letter in the mail, and the results of this letter--I am taking a semester off from Bethany. This may come as a huge surprise to some of you as I love my life at BBC. I am going to work this semester, and apply again in the fall. This semester I plan to do some visiting around the area with some people that used to go to Bethany, I am also singing on the worship team at church and involved in a College and Careers Group. I am excited because I am going to be able to go to my cousin's reception that just got married on December 27. It will be great to have the family together again!! I am looking on the bright side of things and ready to see what God is going to do in my life. Just this week He has already been just helping me to look at the bright side of the situation, and to totally trust in Him.
I am right now in the midst of looking for a job. I will be heading up to Bethany soon to pick up all of my stuff. I'm not sure when it will be, but if you want to get together, or at least meet up so we can say hi, let me know!!
Ciao