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Hey! Well, my week was great! I got to visit a friend last Wednesday out of town and had an awesome time with her, then went on to go shopping for my nephew's 2nd birthday. I took my mom to an Avalon concert last night. It was incredible...those guys do a great job! I heard them in Ottawa with my brother a few years ago...and they were amazing then as well! I am heading to my trailer either today or tomorrow for probably most of the summer! Saturday is the start of Family Camp 1. I can't wait to get out there!! Summer can finally begin, because for me it doesn't really begin until I get out there. Work is going well, we had our last Sunday night youth group this past Sunday, we went to one of the teen's homes and had a pool/movie party, it was a lot of fun! We watched Ladder 49! Great Movie!! The guys didn't want to watch it so the girls did and we were all crying by the end of it! We are planning a camping trip in july and a beach day in August, then I have to lead a morning service Aug. 21. Things are going well! God is still working on me in ways I didn't know possible. It's exciting though, to see where God is taking me in life and what He has in store for me!

I'm being stretched

Hey! Things are slowing down a bit for me! At least, I thought they were, until I attended a meeting at work, and realized that it is going to get busier. God is really stretching me...I guess it's a good thing, but it is very difficult for me! He is taking me way out of my comfort zone. I almost feel like I'm getting all the jobs other people don't want to do. I mean, I love my job! But, like I said I feel like I'm getting dumped on. I am afraid that as good things are happening over the summer, that when fall comes and I leave that they won't have anyone to continue on with the things I've started.
I guess things are confusing and I just need to leave it in God's hands. I still have not heard anything about finances for next year so if you could be praying for that it would be great!
Thanks

It's In Your Hands God

It has been an interesting few weeks! I organized and led a youth service that we invited the whole church to, about 45 people came! I thought it went really well. It was very evident that God was there and it was totally for Him!
I have been worrying a lot more lately about school and how I'm going to pay for it. I need to give it completly 100% over to God though, I try and do that buy have a hard time just leaving it there! It's difficult knowing that when I go back to school, I won't be going back to the apartment I used to live in with the people I used to live with; which is really sad, we were like family!
Please keep me in prayer, and if I can do anything for you let me know!
Ciao

Confused

I am so confused right now! I love my job and great things are happening in my opnion! I am just confused about school. I know I am supposed to be at Bethany but I'm just having a hard time trusting God for the finances. There are a few people who want me to stick around here instead of going back to school, to continue my job, but I know I wouldn't be getting paid and it's not where I'm supposed to be right now! I'm also not having the best time at home, still having a rough time adjusting to everything...and it's been ever a month! Any tips?

Help me out God

Superchick sings a song called, "Help me out God" and these lyrics have been running through my head for the past 24 hours.
"Help me out God I need a little something
Turn the brights on I can't see where we're going
Cause I don't know when things'll work out just fine
Or if this road we're on leads us up
Or is leading me on down to my wishing well
Where I might drown oh I might drown
Cause I can't swim without you God
Help me out God I need a little something
Hold my hand so I know that I'm not falling down
Or spinning round or am I really just fine
Is this vertigo I feel just simply fear or maybe real
It's a long way down and I might fall and I might fall
Cause I can't stand without you God
Help me out God I need a little something
Just enough so I don't lose hope before morning comes
Cause in the sun things'll work out just fine
But the night's been extra long I fear I won't make it to the Dawn
Cause the night is dark and I might doubt and I might doubt
Cause I can't hop without you God
Just enough for tday get me through 'til tomorrow'"

It's been such a rough time lately in my life in more ways than one. I just wish there was an answer. If you could be praying for me in general that would be awesome!
Thanks guys!

A week later...

Well, I went to a wedding last night of a friend I grew up with. She looked amazing and her wedding was great! She had this amazing glow about her!
These next few weeks are looking incredibly busy with a youth service coming up that I am leading. I am trying to get everything together so it is done well!
Other than all of this busyness I'm doing well. I would rather be back at school with everyone than here at home. It feels like I'm arguing all the time with my mom, I just wish there was something/somewhere I could go. Andybody know how I feel?
That's all for now, hope to hear from you soon!

Life isn't the same anymore!

Hey! I feel so confused right now! I am not sure how I'm going to pay for school nexy year. I didn't get the government grant that I was expecting to get. It almost makes me wonder if I am really supposed to be at BBC. I'm taking 11 teenagers to Wonderland tomorrow for the Spring Celebration concert, it should be good! Our original plan was to leave at 8am but I got a call saying they wanted to switch it to 9am, get this: they wanted to sleep in!
I am wondering where God is in all of this confusion of financial stuff. It's so hard to give it all over to Him and "just trust Him."
Any advice?

Ever have 'one of those days'?

So, today was a work at home day. I got a lot of work done, but just turned into a blah day. I really was missing school and just wanted to have a really good talk with one of my friends. It didn't happen, which is ok, I mean I know she is busy with stuff at home. I've been feeling really out of place at home. I don't know why, and wish it wasn't so, but it is. Why can't I just have all of my friends at school here with me? It is so difficult right now! I need to get going because I am really tired and need to work tomorrow! Please drop me a line if you have any advice.
Thanks!

Up and running

OK. I think I'm back for good this time. What a crazy few months it has been, trying to finish off year and projects, write exams, pack, and get everything into storage but also pack everything I need for 4 months into two bags. Kind of nuts, but I made it!
I have started work and love it! I really enjoy working with the youth, I have realized this is a job I've been doing for years, but now I'm getting paid for it, a day off, and I love it! That's what matters most!
I really do miss my friends at school, and if any of you guys are reading this, email, call, or leave a post. I love you guys! Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to be home but would love to be home with all of my friends from school!
I am going to Spring Celebration on the 21 of May which should be a lot of fun! I'm also going to my trailer that weekend, and will get to see some of my friends from camp that are out there for the long weekend! It should be good.
I led youth group last night and it went amazingly well! I don't think a youth meeting as gone so well!! The kids were quiet during the speaking time (which doesn't happen often) and then they were asking questions throughout the spaking, which we answered at the end! It was so awesome to see God work!

OK God I'm listening

Ok, after Missions week here at school I've felt God calling me into more of missions. I'm not neccessarily changing my program or anything like that. I'm not exactly sure where God is calling me, or when, or for how long. I am ready to go wherever He wants me to go. I'm scared sensless because I do not entirely know what that is going to mean in or for the future. I am really excited about my job this summer, as an intern youth pastor at my church. I cannot wait to see what God is going to do in and through me, as well as the teens, the staff, and the church as a body. I have been struggling lately with friends, there are some that are very controlling, and if you do not do something with them they will get mad. I am my own person though, I do not have to answer to them. I love them, but it is just frustrating. I have the choice of talking to this certain person and maybe jepordizing a friendship, or just not saying anything and going about my buisness, and doing my own thing, with them or with other friends. If you have any ideas of what to do it would be awesome if you could give me some advice.